Hey guys, I'm moving to a new blog.
Don't try to ask for it, I'm sorry. Too much personal over there.
I'll be less updating on this blog anymore.
Wish ya guys to be happy.
Only for the special one could read my new blog actually.
Too much me and him.
Sigh.
It was a cruel day for me.I doesn't like any of this.
But what I can choose then?
I couldn't leave this cruel world in this moment because of something special for me.


Ah.. To BOYS, please be more responsible of everything else that you did to you beloved one.
To girls, please don't do anything stupid.
Hmm , I guess nothing to write over here.
My heart had broken to be hearing all from you.
But I'm still in the last hope actually , Maybe that I'm really love you.
I can't help it

Its been 4 days

I'm lonely again ..
I miss you badly , how about you ?
Still mad at me huh ?
Time is needed for everyone ..
Who knows what will happen at the future ..
We might be strangers , we might be friends ..
Who knows .. Just let the time flows ..
You're free to everyone now ..
Even though I am jealous , I can't do anything about it ..
Thats your life ..
I hope I can wish you happy but , is a strange feeling for me ..
Maybe thats the jealousing heart of mine ..
I'm lost out for the past few days ..
Almost get kill by myself ..
I can't really survive when you leaved me ..
Now days I'm still crying alone in my bedroom ..
I can't release my heart to be truely happy ..
Things that happen really hurts me ..
But now I can't find anyone that I really can talk with so i decide to write my blog again ..
Its been awhile I didn't write a long blog like this to release my heart ..

I saw that you're more happier than before ..
Am I right ? You had more friends now ..
They made you happy , they accompany you ..
Is much  better than me ..
Is that the true reason that you leave me ?
You wants to be happy ..
The reason you gave to everyone , is that the real ?
You told me , you never angry me for that ..
You're still ok with it , but then when you came back for CNY , you started to change ..
Or just what they say , I think too much ?
I wish I was that I think too much ..
Is really suffer for me ..

As everyone say , in my age just a puppy love ..
Doesn't matter at all and dont take it too seriously ..
But , what I have to say is , this realation is not JUST a PUPPY LOVE to me ..
Its means a lot and Its means forever to me ..
I knew you're the Mr. Right for me .. As people says as true love ..
I still remember the time when you asked me to marry you ..
Its September 9th 2010 , in my bedroom , around 7.30p.m - 8p.m ..
I take it seriously ,  you know ?
If I don't , I wouldn't say YES without a thinking ..
Because I really love you ..

In this area , there are too much memories of me and you ..
Wherever I go , whatever I do .. The memories are there ..
It makes me think of you again .. I miss you on the spot but I cant do anything else more ..
Too much memory in this country , not area ..
Memories floating around my mind .. They makes me tears all the time ..
I wish to have a second chance to hug you again ..
Without your pushing ..
I miss you badly now ..

Sorry that I love you , Sorry that I selfish on you , Sorry that I really need you ..
I tried to be strong , but I have no brave to be that strong ..
I'm still a little girl .. Don't think that I'm really matured at all ..
I still need someone to love me , I still need someone to take care of me , I still need someone to "tam" me ..
The one that I needed is just only you ..
Noone could give me the love except for you .. You're my one and only special one ..
hope you knows that ..

ILY